It is killing me that he does not care. He is cold, and with his behaviour he was just screaming: I don’t need you!
Finally, I let it go. At least, I hope I did.
Gradually, I start realizing that when is the time to give up.
The other thing which I recently realized.. is that there was no man who was in love with me. I was dating, I was seeing someone, but they never treat me seriously. Some of them told me that they did, but it was a lie. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I am educated, quite good-looking, I take care of myself, I do care of my reputation. But that’s not enough obviously.
They so easily lost interest and they so easily walked away. I never could stuck in any one’s hear..
I heard that if you don’t love yourself, no one will. Maybe I just don’t love myself? Maybe I simply don’t appreciate myself?
For now, I need to overcome the pain and learn to love myself…